Leave Me to Be Me

I know I've made mistakes

I know it hurts you

But I need to find my way

Even if that means goodbye

Just know that it doesn't

Mean that I don't love you

I just need to live my life

The way I want to

I'll try to do you proud

For now, I'll fuck around

I'm young - I need to make

Mistakes that lead me to be me

Don't judge me for this

It doesn't change who I am

I just want to make up

For time lost and have fun

I'll probably come home drunk

Or high off that new drug

Possibly find new guys to fuck

That I won't remember the names of

I'll try to do you proud

For now, I'll fuck around

I'm young - I need to make

Mistakes that lead me to be me

I took life too seriously

Always made the right choices

And I'm tired of being the good girl

I want some stories to tell

But please don't stop loving

Me - I'll be the ideal girl

I know I'll do you proud

After all, I have you

Unfinished

I don't feel happy
It's alright
I just want to know what you're feeling

Can we be that empty?
It's not fair
This loneliness I can't bear

We won't be alone
If you stay
I'll love you day after day
Day after day

Won't you say you love me
Ease my mind
We can walk this road hand in hand

We won't be alone
If you stay
I'll love you day after day
Day after day

Back When You Smiled

I remember when you smiled
That was back before you left
Tell me why it had to go away
I remember when you loved me
It was then that I lived
Tell me where have you been

Why don't you come back
You're just the warmth in my bed

I woke up to you holding me
You told me that you would stay
You looked at me and smiled
You were better now
It all had finally changed
But that was just a dream

Why don't you come back
You're just the warmth in my bed

I forgot the way you smiled
That was after you had left
You've been gone a while now
I forgot the way you loved me
What was it that I did
To make you leave for so long

Why don't you come back
You're just the warmth in my bed

Why don't you come back
I want to meet the warmth in my bed

Sunken Ships

We built a ship together
And we sailed it out
For over a year now

We've hit a few storms
The blue grew too dark
But we had each other

One night we made love
As the storm sunk our ship
And I lost you

Your love is an ocean
Your love's the deep sea
I came to find you
But you drowned me

I never learned to swim
Without you I didn't care
I just needed to find you

Your love is an ocean
Your love's the deep sea
I came to find you
But you drowned me

I felt like crying
I never said goodbye
I might as well have died

Your love is an ocean
Your love's the deep sea
You're much more blue
There's no room for me.

Scrap. Crap.

Why is it that I was never good enough for you?

I always tried to do the best that you needed me to do.

Why was it that there were always other girls around?

What was it that they had that I hadn't gotten down?

Were they prettier than me?

Funnier than I could be?

Did they turn you on so... well,

Something I could never impel.

How could you walk away and leave me far behind.

It's hurt me so bad that I even lost my mind.

Every single thing you did led my heart to believe

They were made to be something that I couldn't be.

Were they prettier than me?

Funnier than I could be?

Did they turn you on so... well,

Something I could never impel.

Every other girl seemed to have your attention more than me.

Why is it that I was never good enough for you?

I always tried to do the best that you needed me to do.

Why was it that there were always other girls around?

What was it that they had that I hadn't gotten down?

How am I supposed to feel that you are here to stay

When I can't let go of all those other days.

Prisoners

Who would have thought a little, blue pill
Would have such grave effects on a young soul.
Your infliction of disease and addiction,
Narcissistic notions and loss of control.

Stuck in a self-created prison,
But are you the prisoner or the jailer?
The prisoner or the jailer?
You're a prisoner by your own hands.

If I told you I love you
Would it be enough?
If I told you I need you
Would it be enough?
If you're going down,
I'm going down with you.

I would have thought the view of great distance
Would be the one to tear me down.
The idea of loving one so truly
For days on end until you skip town.

But I wouldn't have thought a little, blue pill
Would have such grave effects on a young boy.
An addiction and imprisonment that would
Take hold of him and my heart to destroy.

If I told you I love you
Would it be enough?
If I told you I need you
Would it be enough?
If you're going down,
I'm going down with you.

I'm sure it's been said a thousand times before,
I've never been more proud than that Spring Break.
Now, a sharp feeling of being disheartened
By a defeated man's selfish mistake.

Mindless thoughts that an addiction imprisons
And hurts only those with their medicine.
But reality shows that more are killed
By self-conclusion and scars for who you've been.

If I told you I love you
Would it be enough?
If I told you I need you
Would it be enough?
If you're going down,
I'm going down with you.

I've never seen a sober man so lovely.
Baby, if you're going down, I'm going down with you.

Stranger

I saw you by the road today.
You looked at me and gazed away.
You look half dead but alive.

This hurts you more than you portray.
Your sleepless nights and lonely days.
What hurts you most is you tried.

You cried yourself to sleep last night.
Unaware of what to do.
He lied down and held me just right.
But it should have been you.

Your broken heart leaves you breathless.
Losing him has made you restless.
And I would have said you died.

I now have what you fought hard for.
What should be yours, made your heart sore.
And he should be by your side.

You cried yourself to sleep last night.
Unaware of what to do.
He lied down and held me just right.
But it should have been you.

You cried yourself to sleep tonight.
Unaware of what to do.
He lies down and holds me just right.
But this should have been you.
And this should have been you.

Dove Song

There in the distance I see a silhouette
I hope that it's you but I'm so unsure of it
And if it is what could I do
I just don't mean a thing to you

What happened to our love
Where did these raindrops come from
The songs we used to play
Have now just faded away

I'm driving down the interstate
Forgetting what you said today
And in the midst of radio play
A song comes on... By The Way

Do you ever think of the past
Of memories and a love to last
Don't forget all that I've done for you
It was me who dragged you to this room

What happened to our love
Where did this lightning come from
The Dove Song that you made
Has now just lost its place

I'm driving down the highway fast
Headlights blinding, there's a crash
Death Cab plays while we lie
"Love is watching someone die"

What happened to our love
Where did these raindrops come from
The songs we used to play
Are now just fading away

Promises

Would you just cut this out
Just let go of some doubt
Don't be afraid to let yourself,
To let yourself out

I'll be here to catch you when you fall
And I don't mind if in the end I lose it all
['Cause all I want is you, is you. Is you, is you.]
And I know that we can make it
So why don't you give in, give in a little bit
[And give yourself to this, to this. To this, to this.]

I promise that I'll make you happy
And all of this would be worthwhile
And I know that you could love me
The way you did before it all

So won't you let me out, let me out
And let me shout at the top of my lungs
At how you and I could be everything
And to you, my baby, I will sing

I'll be here to catch you when you fall
And I don't mind if in the end I lose it all
['Cause all I want is you, is you. Is you, is you.]
And I know that we can make it
So why don't you give in, give in a little bit
[And give yourself to this, to this. To this, to this.]

I promise that I'll make you happy
And all of this would be worthwhile
And I know that you could love me
The way you did before it all

I trust myself, I trust my heart
You'd be happy and never hurt
I'm changing better every day
I'll make you smile in every way

I'll be here to catch you when you fall
And I don't mind if in the end I lose it all
['Cause all I want is you, is you. Is you, is you.]
And I know that we can make it
So why don't you give in, give in a little bit
[And give yourself to this, to this. To this, to this.]

I promise that I'll make you happy
And all of this would be worthwhile
And I know that you could love me
The way you did before it all

I promise that I'll make you happy
And all of this would be worthwhile
And I know that you could love me
The way you did before it all

Muffin Top

Cause I can be a bitch and have fun when you act like a cuntbag.
Let me see your muffin top
Let me see that fat ass bop
I want to see that ass wiggle
I want to see that flab jiggle

You're kind of like a freak show
The way your body hangs low
You know that ogres don't belong
Tell me babe, you got a schlong?

Your man can't hold you up
That's why he's gotta be on top
Hun, you know that ogres don't belong
Someone call animal control!

Ogres and tigers and bears, oh my!
Hideous, top heavy - fucking terrified
Flab, love handles - everyfuckingwhere
Tell me girl, what size you wear

'Cause you're kind of like a freak show
The way your body hangs low
You know that ogres don't belong
Tell my babe, why don't you go?

Promises

Never thought I'd feel like this
Every smile and kiss I miss
And I can't stand to turn and see
The way that we have come to be

It's like I'm stuck between a rock
A rock and hard place, I am locked
I either stay and stay with pain
Or let you go and walk away

When I hold you, it's all I ever want to do
But I can't trust you after all that we've been through
So what do I do
When I hold you and it's all I ever want to do
But I can't trust you after all that we've been through
What do I do when all these things are you

I wish we could go back
Before we crashed, before we wrecked
Before I knew all that I do
Before I felt the pain to lose

Cause baby, you kiss me and I know, I know it's what I want
But then I see that I'm not, that I'm not the only one

But when I hold you, it's all I ever want to do
But I can't trust you after all that we've been through
So what do I do
When I hold you and it's all I ever want to do
But I can't trust you after all that we've been through
What do I do when all these things are you

Baby, this can end with us
But do I know if I can trust
That I'd be the one for you
Be the one that you'd love, too

And when I hold you, it's all I ever want to do
But I can't trust you after all that we've been through
So what do I do
When I hold you and it's all I ever want to do
But I can't trust you after all that we've been through
What do I do when all these things are you

To walk away or to stay
Both will end with me in pain
But only one brings me you
And just that one gives me you

From Me to You

Why do you always stick around
When all I ever do is put you down
You've done everything, everything
And I can't say the same

When things get good, I push away
And I know it gets harder everyday
When you give everything, everything
And I don't do the same

And, girl, I know you know I love you
Always have, always will 'til the day you
Finally see that you don't deserve
What you go through [and walk away]

I don't know why I do the things I do
To someone as good to me as you
Beautiful and perfect in every view

What do you see in someone like me
Battle field, on your knees
You're fighting, bleeding for me

And, girl, I know you know I love you
Always have, always will 'til the day you
Finally see that you don't deserve
What you go through [and walk away]

I don't know why I do the things I do
To someone as good to me as you
Beautiful and perfect in every damn view

And I wish you could
Find someone who would
Love you just the same

But I can't bear the
Thought of losing you
And watch you walk away

So please stay [I'd change]
Don't give up [on me]
Cause, girl, I know you know I love you
Always have, always will 'til the say you
Finally get the me you're fighting for

What Sarah Said

"But we're no longer one, but two.
I'm too unable to do this right now.
Thinking of trying life without you."
"Of all times, don't!" She begs "our vow!"

"What? It's too unbearable, this mess!"
Sarah cried "don't walk away from me.
Said I looked lovely in a white dress.
Love we can get through this, can't you see?

Is it so hard to give yourself to this?
Watching me on this hospital bed, you care."
"Someone I used to love," he leaves with a kiss.
"Die away from me, my heart can't tear."

Turn It Down

His familiar scent brings images - red
Reenactments and memories. Lustful; bled
Don't remember, don't want. These feelings unneeded
Run, he screams, run!

"The taste of me is your kiss of death
Touch again, you'll break your neck"
Run. Don't remember. Just leave
Or stick in my entangled mess

His constant fantasy to see her cry
She stutters and chokes, begs to try
Reaching out, tight grip she has
He lets her go effortlessly

He makes his move and her heart races
Inactive and blue, he lies, she paces
It paces and races, drops and stops
Tiresome and decisionless

She wants, she loves and begs for more
He shakes his head, finger to door
He won, she leaves, she walks back home
Lost.

Turn It Up

I've hated myself all way through
But I've never once hated you.
This game is tearing me apart.
And you say that you love me
But you never try to be
My everything, my love, my heart.

Last night you looked at me
With so much love and longing.
Why couldn't you say
How much you loved to see
My face in the morning?
Why didn't I stay?

And you say you want some space
Then call me the next day.
Why can't you see I'm your lady?
If I tried to run away
Would you try to make me stay
Here in your arms, pretty baby?

So how much of this can I take
Of all these push and pull games.
Please make up your mind, love. Fast.
Let go and just take a chance.
Have some faith in this romance.
Baby, we can make this last.

I hate that you break my heart in two
I hate that you kiss me and say we're through
What the fuck, dear, is wrong with you?
I hate that I don't just walk away
I hate that I can't help but stay
Right next to you.

Last night you looked at me
With so much love and longing.
Why didn't you say
How much you loved to see
My face in the morning?
Why didn't you stay?

And you say you want some space
Then call me the next day.
Can't you see I'm your lady?
If I tried to run away
Would you try to make me stay
Here with you, my sweet baby?